It was my first time to share things about my family and to cry infront of alot of people.
At first, i was sharing my encounter with Jesus in the boat. I don’t what happened why tears just fell down and almost everybody was saying my name and trying to stop me. Maybe because it was the first time they saw me crying. I don’t know what’s the matter, all i know was just i was saying what i’ve experience at that moment.
The second time was when Sister Isabel let us share an experience where in we encounter God the most. Maybe i was really meant to be called. I shared the status with my relationship witb mg siblings. I say that i’m so thankful and blessed because out of the bloom my kuya and I are in good terms already. All i’m asking now to be close with my ate. I think almost everybody was shock with what i shared because only few people knows my relationship with my siblings.
Really, that was the first time. Im the kind of person who don’t open up to people and talk some things like that infront of them. I don’t want anybody seeing me crying for Christ sake. I’m not used to express my feelings. But that experience make me feel that i’m relieved and at that moment i felt that i’m in peace.
To them, i just want to thank you all for listening. Trying to stop me and for the hugs. :)) You people never fail to put a smile on my face. THANK YOU.
I was sailing in a boat having God at my side. He looked at me and hug me. He was patiently listening to all my sufferings and pains. God didn’t say anything after i talked ,He just looked at me and i can see His love in His eyes.
God did not say anything cause He knows that I know what He will going to say to me. I have said to Him all my sufferings and pains many times already. God always say ‘My child, calm down everything will be fine and fall into the right place just have faith and do your job, the rest will be My job.”
Ang takbo ng buhay mo ay nakadepende sayo. Kung itatatak mo sa iyong puso’t isipan na walang mangyayari o wala ka ng magagawang tama, nasasaiyo yan. Wag kang umasa na may ibang taong sosolusyon nv problema mo. Problema mo yan, ginawa mo yan harapin ko yan at solusyunan ng mag-isa. Ang mga tao sa paligid mo ay parang mga magulang mo lang na walang sawang gumagabay sayo. Ang desisyon at huling hirit at nasa iyong mga kamay.
isa lamang ito sa mga bagay na aking inihahandog sa aking mga kaibigan. Kadalasan ang mga binibigay ko ay bunga ng aking pghihirap. Yung bunga ng aking munting talento sa larangan ng art. Ayoko kasi ng regalo na basta-basta lang binili gusto ko yung pinaghihirapan, effort kung baga. Simple bagay lang ang handog ng isang simpleng tao. Naniniwala kasi ako na “it’s the thought that counts”. :)
It’s better not to talk and observe first before saying anything. Sometimes we are not aware that what we are saying are not right anymore. We are not aware that someone is hurting already. We cannot conclude one thing without really knowing what had happened or what is it about to that person. It’s not because we saw him/her doing bad things and saying not so good things we will already conclude that he/she is bad. In life, that is not the case, we have to be a keen observers and we have to know more about such things before saying anything.
Yes, i have everything that i wanted but that does not mean we are rich. I not that person who always ask my parents to buy this and that. I just let them buy it at first then i will just pay i installment basis. 500 or 1000 a month is not bad as long as I’m paying. It’s also my way of gaining the trust of my parents and showing them that i have control and i can do things which they think i can’t. I don’t have the guts to ask my parent to buy all the things that i want, knowing that they are already spending too much for my studies.
I hate people saying that i easily get what i want. Because they don’t know what sacrifice I am doing just to have all these things i have now. Knowing for the fact that I’m a person who don’t know hot to save money from my allowance. “Hindi pa ganun kakapal ang mukha ko para ipabili ang lahat ng luho ko sa magulang ko.”